- Gandalf, The Lord of the Rings
I don't know why because I spend a good chunk of my time on the other side of town. But it always seems to be the day that I have the most time. And it's nice. And... it pretty much means the end of the week for me because I love Friday's no matter what.
I don't really have much point to this blog, but I felt I should blog.
I had a really weird dream last night. And I don't know why I was so weirded out about it... but, it just made me feel really uncomfortable. Basically, this one girl that I used to be best friends with but haven't talked to in forever (but see regularly) came up to me and asked me about an inside joke and then we just kinda spent a while talking about our old inside jokes. And I don't know why I dreamed about that. I mean... I don't know why I care so much. But, it's just weird seeing her.
And then we were performing the WoL and I couldn't remember my lines. Kinda sad. But... I actually do know them still.
I really really really really hate being the middle man. The one caught in the middle of conflict. It's happen to me countless times and all that ends up happening is I hurt people. I wish I was more confrontational... or just not afraid of awkward situations.
I've just been thinking about this recently and I was reminded how true it was.
I can't put my hope in worldy things. I can't put my hope in theatre, or in plays. I can't put my hope in my dreams. I can't put my hope in friends, even the best of friends. I can't put my hope in relationships. I can't put my hope in school.
All these things have failed me. And left me empty.
"Only you can fill my soul."
He has never failed me. And never will.
So put my hope in Him and Him only. Why is it so much harder than it sounds?