"All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given to us."

- Gandalf, The Lord of the Rings
If you tarry until you're better, you will never come at all.

I've realized that I'm never going to know. I'm never going to just understand anything, and that that is okay. I don't need to know how or when or why or whatever, I just need to trust. And I don't need to worry about what I need to do or what I will do. Because I can't do anything good enough. You know?

This is silly and random, but a fear that I have is dying right now. I mean, I know it's going to happen, but if I were to die right now, I wouldn't have been able to fix everything I've messed up or done anything really cool in my life, for that matter. I want to get things right before I leave this life, but I guess I can't wait because this life could be shorter than I think, although I hope not.

I'm already tired of my job. Ha. I mean, I'll feel differently when I get my paycheck. It's just so boring. Soo boring. But the people are nice and the actual job part is fine. I just don't want to have to sit there for 3 hours, 3 days a week and sometimes more. I'll probably stop when school starts, I think that'll be best.

So yeah, that's what's been going on pretty much.


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