- Gandalf, The Lord of the Rings
I've realized that I'm never going to know. I'm never going to just understand anything, and that that is okay. I don't need to know how or when or why or whatever, I just need to trust. And I don't need to worry about what I need to do or what I will do. Because I can't do anything good enough. You know?
This is silly and random, but a fear that I have is dying right now. I mean, I know it's going to happen, but if I were to die right now, I wouldn't have been able to fix everything I've messed up or done anything really cool in my life, for that matter. I want to get things right before I leave this life, but I guess I can't wait because this life could be shorter than I think, although I hope not.
I'm already tired of my job. Ha. I mean, I'll feel differently when I get my paycheck. It's just so boring. Soo boring. But the people are nice and the actual job part is fine. I just don't want to have to sit there for 3 hours, 3 days a week and sometimes more. I'll probably stop when school starts, I think that'll be best.
So yeah, that's what's been going on pretty much.