I don't know why because I spend a good chunk of my time on the other side of town. But it always seems to be the day that I have the most time. And it's nice. And... it pretty much means the end of the week for me because I love Friday's no matter what.

I don't really have much point to this blog, but I felt I should blog.

I had a really weird dream last night. And I don't know why I was so weirded out about it... but, it just made me feel really uncomfortable. Basically, this one girl that I used to be best friends with but haven't talked to in forever (but see regularly) came up to me and asked me about an inside joke and then we just kinda spent a while talking about our old inside jokes. And I don't know why I dreamed about that. I mean... I don't know why I care so much. But, it's just weird seeing her.

And then we were performing the WoL and I couldn't remember my lines. Kinda sad. But... I actually do know them still.

I really really really really hate being the middle man. The one caught in the middle of conflict. It's happen to me countless times and all that ends up happening is I hurt people. I wish I was more confrontational... or just not afraid of awkward situations.

I've just been thinking about this recently and I was reminded how true it was.

I can't put my hope in worldy things. I can't put my hope in theatre, or in plays. I can't put my hope in my dreams. I can't put my hope in friends, even the best of friends. I can't put my hope in relationships. I can't put my hope in school.

All these things have failed me. And left me empty.

"Only you can fill my soul."

He has never failed me. And never will.

So put my hope in Him and Him only. Why is it so much harder than it sounds?

Sorry I've been so down lately. I'm okay. Really. I just... have nothing to do anymore. Nothing to stress out about. So... all I can do is think.

I don't really have much to blog about. I just want you to know that I'm still upset, and even more upset at times, but I'm not crying all the time or anything.

Today is District for UIL... so I'm a little more upset. Also, I've gotten a lot of congrats/great show compliments lately, but it just makes it worse. Also, Phaedra was apparently not too good. That's what Eliza said. Woooooooh. Thanks judge. I'm sorry... I don't like to dislike people, and try not too... but I seriously can't find anything in her to like. Urrrrchhhhh. Every time I think about it and her, I just want to know what was going on in her head. Why was she our judge?!! Cause she didn't even like Falls. And, I found out we actually made the alternate position. Not 4th place that we thought. So, cool? I guess. I don't know. Cy Ridge wrote Mrs. Koern an email saying how much they loved our show and how suprised they were that they advanced and not us. Which, as much as it is flattering, makes it worse. I miss UIL so much. I miss rehearsals. I miss my character. I miss the cast. Bllllaaaahhhhh.

I did get my SAT scores today... 2030!!!! :))) I didn't think I'd do so good. I'm so proud of myself. Ha. And I don't really want to take it again. Ha, but I think my mom may want me to. We'll see.